The end of the year is fast approaching and I’ve accomplished nothing with my life cool cool cool. Anyway, the most important question is: did I stick to my TBR? Kind of. I disappeared about halfway through the month and I go into more detail into my “me me me” section of this post. Things will probably be hectic this month too because Christmas 🙃🤢 but we’ll see how I go!
Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan from Hachette Australia
I never requested this so seeing an ARC show up was such a lovely surprise! It’s so pretty 😍😍😍
When this month first started I was pretty happy with how my reading was going. I was sticking to my TBR relatively well, but then I picked up If We Were Villains and there went the end of that because that book DESTROYED me and even now, 2 weeks later, I’m struggling to even WANT to read anything else.
Girl Made of Stars by Ashley Herring Blake || ★★★★★ || This was such a difficult, but important read. I think I cried the entire time? I can’t recommend it enough. The characters and the relationships between everyone were all done so brilliantly and the topic of rape was handled really well. [tw: rape, sexual assault, paedophilia]
To Kill A Kingdom by Alexandra Christo || ★★★★☆ || If you’re a casual fantasy reader like I am then I think you’ll REALLY enjoy this. It was so much fun and I loved the whole enemies to lovers trope going on between the mc and her love interest.
What If It’s Us by Becky Albertalli & Adam Silvera || ★★★★★ || Now that I’ve read this I can definitely see why people had issues, but I couldn’t help but love it??? I’m just so weak for the whole awkward, pop culture filled contemporary. I actually almost died reading that Ansel Elgort scene though GOOD GOD. I feel like a lot of people hate the ending and again I see why, but idk — call me a pessimistic but I liked it. [tw: panic attacks, homophobia]
Dear Martin by Nic Stone || ★★★★☆ || Another difficult, but extremely important read that made me SOB. As a white person I feel like I can’t really comment too much on this because it’s not my place. I’m really glad this story exists though and everyone needs to read it. Nic Stone hit hard and I’m so glad she did. [tw: racism, gun violence, police brutality]
If We Were Villains by M.L. Rio || ★★★★★ || THIS BOOK HAS RUINED ME FOR ALL OF ETERNITY. GOD DAMN THESE RIDICULOUS THEATRE KIDS AND THEIR LACK OF ABILITY TO JUST FUCKING TALK TO EACH OTHER. I’LL PROBABLY NEVER BE ABLE TO READ ANOTHER BOOK AGAIN? I’M LEGIT TEARING UP JUST WRITING THIS BECAUSE THE ENDING FUCKED ME UP THAT MUCH. EVERYTHING HURTS. IF YOU’VE READ THIS PLEASE TALK TO ME BECAUSE I’M NOT OKAY. After I finished reading this book I kept rereading all my favourite parts and I made a playlist on Spotify with a 113 songs and that’s how I know a book has affected me lmao [tw: violence]
Wow. It’s been a Month.
I should have known that when I finally cracked my phone’s screen that this month was going to be not great lmao.
First of all I was hit with a really bad flu and was in bed for like 5 days.
Then the reason why I haven’t been around is because some Family Drama™ happened. I was looking after my little sister (who has a lot of mood issues) for a week. I literally had no time to do anything except go to class. I then spent a weekend back home before finally coming back to Perth. In Geraldton all I did was take photos of the beach and play with my dad’s new puppy.
Mental health wise I’ve started seeing a psychologist. It happened pretty spur of the moment. She’s really nice, but because she’s assigned by my job network she’s very work orientated so I think I want to try and find someone else as well? Just because I feel like that’s a huge focus of the sessions and I want it to be more than that? It’s been a pretty draining experience, because I’ve always struggled with that side of the treatment process.
In more positive news I finished my TAFE course!! I’m just waiting back for the final results but I’m 98% sure I passed 🎉🎉 I’ve already started the re-enrolment process for getting my cert iv next year! I know it’s going to be a lot harder, but I’m excited because it’s going to be more focused on actual web design. Our major assessment was to create a simple website for a fake bike store. I can’t show you a working version, but here’s a screen shot of my index page.
When I’m stressed I tend to watch more movies or tv shows? I know a lot of people use reading as a way to de-stress and whilst reading definitely helps me I just find it impossible to read when stressful situations are going on? So this month, technically the past few days, I decided I wanted to watch all the trashy teen horror/thriller movies because they’re my Fave. I’m so not usually a movie watcher? I honestly either watch 3 movies a year or 3 movies a day. There’s no in between.
Obviously Aquamarine and Small Foot weren’t part of my horror binge lmaoooo, but I watched Aquamarine because I was on a mermaid kick after reading To Kill A Kingdom and I’d never seen it before and I was feeling kinda sad so I thought it would help cheer me up and I fell in love with it. It’s such a cute movie with a great message of friendship. When I was in Geraldton I took my sister to see Small Foot and it was your typical fun animated film.
I won’t go too much into all the horror movies. They all have the same overall themes (the two Truth or Dare movies have the legit same plot lmao). I did take a break from the Trashy Horrors to watch a Serious Horror and finally saw Hereditary and oh my fucking god what the fUCK??????? To cleanse myself I then continued with the trashy horrors. My favourites were definitely Unfriended: Dark Web (I was one of the people who enjoyed the first one, but if you didn’t don’t be put off — this is in a whole new league), Like.Share.Follow (this has Keiynan Lonsdale so!! He plays a famous YouTuber who’s stalked by a fan), SyFy’s Truth or Dare (college kids play a game of truth or dare that’s possessed by a demon), Look Away (super fucked up thriller about a girl replacing herself with a mirror imaged version and fucking shit up), Kristy (legit no plot just a girl alone on a campus being hunted by 4 killers but she’s a total badass), Plush (this was a rewatch and is one of my fave movies ever it’s so trashy and fucked up a pretty reckless-esque rock singer hooks up with her guitarist and shit goes wrong real fast) and #PopFan (a Lifetime Kidzbopped version of Misery). The only one I really hated was Wish Upon lmao. If you want to know more about each movie then I’ve made a thread on Twitter!
Some of my favourite songs from this month:
CAN WE TALK ABOUT WHAT A CINEMATIC MASTERPIECE THIS MUSIC VIDEO IS
I’ve been in love with Ashley Tisdale since I was 16 and I’m so happy she’s making music again.
This new song from Marianas Trench got me back into their music and reminded me why they were one of my favourite bands.
This song is about my life lmao but seriously I love this band so much their music is beautiful omg
Like always, here’s a playlist of all my favourite songs from the month: