This is a post I didn’t want to write. I’ve been putting it off since the end of January. I have tried everything to not have to do this.
You may have noticed that I haven’t really been around much. I’m not sure what happened, but sometime in the middle of January I lost all motivation for everything especially reading and blogging. With the current state of the world my mental health is at a low point and I don’t even have the energy to get out of bed and I definitely don’t want to read.
Being an extremely distracted person I often find myself in slumps and burn outs. I can normally get through them by stepping back for a few days and binging Netflix or reading Comics. The difference between those slumps and this slump though is that I don’t want to read. I have a book review due on the 26th and I’m in full panic mode because I don’t know how the hell I’m going to do it.
I hate having to write this post because my 1 year blogging anniversary is just a couple weeks away. I was so excited for my blogging journey this year and as I mentioned in my wrap up post, the start of January was perfect and then everything just became more and more overwhelming until it got to the point where I was having really bad relapse episodes. This is not how I wanted the start of my year to go, but it’s happened so now I just have to try and work on pulling myself out. It’s also hard to have a book blog when you don’t want to book. There’s only so many non-bookish posts I can do before people would be like “this isn’t what I signed up for” and that’s totally understandable.
I know everyone who follows me is super understanding and supportive, but I still feel guilty. I know you’ll all tell me that it’s okay to take a break and I appreciate that so much ♥ Honestly, it’s not event the not reading part that has me the most concerned. It’s the not blog hopping part. I miss you all SO MUCH and I miss reading your posts, but I just don’t have the energy right now.
I won’t be home for 4 days next week and I don’t see this slump changing anytime soon so to make this tl;dr:
I’m going on hiatus indefinitely.
Saying “indefinitely” makes it sound like I’m going to be gone for months, but I promise that’s not the case. I just don’t know /when/ I’ll be back so I don’t want to set a specific time period. I’m going to try and force myself to read the book I received from Pan Macmillan and will post a review, but that’s probably the only post you’ll see. I want to try and be here for my anniversary so I’m hoping I can get back on track.
This is definitely not a goodbye, although some days I have considered that I’m not cut out for this whole thing, but I’m way too stubborn to give in 😉 So this is just a cya soon!! I’ll still be annoyingly active on Twitter. So you can follow me over there if you’d like!!
Your support over the past 11 months has been so overwhelming in the best way ♥. I never thought I’d do anything with this blog thing, but you all made me feel so welcomed and I honestly can’t thank you all enough! Apologies for this post being all over the place, but it’s kinda just me emptying my thoughts out onto the screen.
I hope you’re all having a lovely day and I promise I’ll be back soon ♥♥♥.