I’m not sure if this is a New Blogger thing or something that people who have been blogging for years face, but I wanted to make a post about some of the things I struggle with when it comes to blogging. Whilst my blogging experience so far has been a mostly, extremely positive experience I do have some anxieties and I feel like talking about them will help me and hopefully anyone else who feels the same way!
This is my first kind of discussion post so I’m a little nervous. Okay, really nervous. It’s something I’ve wanted to talk about though so! Here goes…
When it comes to full length novels I am normally an extremely slow reader. There are a few exceptions if I’m reading a Horror/Thriller that is under 300 pages I can get through it in a day if I’m determined. When I was a kid I was really fast at reading. I read every single Harry Potter book in a day. Now I struggle to get through 50 pages a day. My attention span is non existent and I find myself getting distracted by the most mundane and pointless things. It doesn’t matter if I don’t have internet or my phone. I’ll still find a way to distract myself from the book I’m reading. Even if I am absolutely loving the book I’m reading I will still lose focus and my brain will decide staring at my ceiling is a better way to spend my time.
“But Lauren, you read like 20 books last month, what are you talking about?”
The majority of those 20 books where short stories, novellas and graphic novels. I only read about 4 or 5 full length novels and only did reviews for a handful of them. It’s a good way to trick people into thinking you’re a fast reader. #LaurensLifeHacks
I see so many people who seem to be able to get through 3-5 full length books a week and post reviews for every single one of them (which I’m going to talk more about in my next point) and I just feel like I’m not fast enough? I feel like I need to keep up a quick pace with my reading or people will lose interest.
Reviews, Posts & Writing
Because of my slow reading speed I don’t tend to post many reviews. I maybe average 1 a week or 2-3 if I’m lucky. Actually, lbr probably never 3. I see people who post reviews almost daily and I’m just like; “WHAT IS THIS BLACK MAGIC!”. No, but seriously? How. I am so impressed. I don’t want my blog to just be full of tags or memes (even though they are SO much fun so please keep tagging me in things!!!), but I don’t want to not post anything because I haven’t had the motivation to finish a book. My tag posts also seem to get more interaction so that makes me want to post them more because I enjoy discussions. I’m also not that creative so I struggle to come up with ideas for discussion posts. It takes me a long time to write reviews because I’m no good at articulating my thoughts into actual words that make sense. I really need to focus and figure out how I can describe what I just read in a way that actually makes sense and will allow people to understand what the book is about.
I am not a writer, unless you want to count the embarrassing fan fic I wrote when I was 15. I barely finished high school because of my mental illnesses. Actually, technically I didn’t finish high school. I completed my studies via TAFE (which is like a trade school / community college for those not aware of Australian lingo). I didn’t do any kind of final exams. I haven’t been to university or college. I have a basic high school certificate and a certificate in Digital Media. I am not ashamed of that. There’s nothing wrong with not going to Uni or College. However, I get so worried that my writing isn’t good enough? I’m always worried about technical aspects, grammar and style. My writing is pretty basic, I know that. I get worried because I don’t want to sound boring or repitive. So many bloggers are teachers, writers, journalists ect. and it kinda makes me feel irrationally nervous.
Something I know is completely irrational but my brain tells me I have to worry about it. Whenever I praise a book in a review, tag or meme and someone says they’re going to add it to their TBR my anxiety goes through the roof because I get so worried that they’re going to hate it and that I’ve just wasted their time.
Am I Being Annoying?
Am I posting too much or not enough?
Realistically I know that 1-2 posts a day is an absolutely okay amount, but again my brain causes me to stress over it.
What about commenting?
Unfortunately my social anxiety doesn’t just stop at face-to-face interaction. Interaction of any kind is so scary for me so whenever I go to write a comment it takes me about 5-15 minutes sometimes whilst I try and figure out how I want it to sound. I probably delete and rewrite it at least 3 times. I get worried that what I’m commenting won’t make sense or isn’t needed and I’ll just be annoying the OP with it. When I like a post, but don’t comment I feel bad, but sometimes I honestly don’t know what to say so I just give as much acknowledgement as I can.
What about the actual content of my posts?
This comes back to the whole Reviews Vs Tags thing, so I won’t dwell on it too much. It’s pretty self explanatory. I’m sure this is a really common problem everyone has and as much as I tell myself that it’s my blog and I’m okay with posting what I want I still can’t fully accept that frame of mind. I am really trying though.
If I tag someone in a post will they feel like they have to do it even if they don’t want to?
Again another irrational self explanatory one. I get nervous tagging people because I don’t know how they feel about tags and I don’t want to annoy them. If I ever tag you in something and you don’t want to do it then I promise it’s okay ♥